Well hello there….I’m sure no one is here anymore. Which is to be expected. But I miss blogging. I miss the accountability, and I miss writing. So, I’m back! :D
Now more than ever I need the accountability. I’m not going to go into the nitty gritty details, but my weight has been climbing. If you read my blog before, you know this.
I think before I signed off on blogging, my weight was around 176 pounds, plus or minus a few because it fluctuated so much. I weighed myself this morning, and I’m now at 189.4. :( I can’t believe it.
Guys, I’m getting really scared. How is it possible? It just keeps creeping up and up and it’s not stopping. I’m starting to feel out of control. A huge problem lately is doing so good during the day, then getting home and completely bingeing. Part of my problem is that I have trigger foods in the apartment for my boyfriend. I’ve gotten rid of those foods, but this is just getting ridiculous. It has to stop. I never thought I’d be up to almost 200 pounds. That is just terrifying to me, and I have been so disgusted with myself and my body. Honestly, I really feel like I haven’t changed my eating habits so much that it would warrant that type of weight gain, so I’m really at a loss. I don’t know if it’s because I’m getting older, the sedentary lifestyle is catching up, or what.
But that stops now. I need this blog, I need the support, and the accountability. So I’m back. For how long? Who knows….but at least until I can get this weight under control. I’ll be documenting my entire journey here. The highs, the lows, and the boring in-betweens. No more pushing things under the rug, and no more weight gain. I absolutely refuse to let myself gain another ounce.
From this point forward, the scale goes down. I will NOT allow it to go up.
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!!
