The End

I’ve thought so many times of closing this blog down.  I haven’t done it yet, but at this time, I think that’s what the best decision is for me.  I just don’t have the time that I used to to dedicate to this blog.  I used to have a really boring job where I could surf the internet pretty much the entire day and get paid for it.  Not anymore.  If I surf the internet for even 15 minutes, I get behind.  Then usually by the time I get home, I’m exhausted and don’t want to come up with a blog entry.

It’s become a chore, and not something I enjoy anymore.  So with that, I’m going to have to shut this place down.  I will continue reading/following other blogs.  And maybe some day I’ll come back (under a different name).  But this is the end for My Inner Butterfly.

I know there are not many of you out there, but to whoever is reading this…thanks for sticking around.  I’ve definitely enjoyed this place…..it’s this space that brought me to my very first 5K.  Something I will always remember.  This blog has seen a lot of ups and downs, and I am forever grateful for it, and all the readers who have commented.  I appreciate you more than you know.

Thanks again.

Another Wake-Up Call

I had another wake up call last night.  I'm not sure how many more of these I'm going to have before I finally change things.  But I hope it's some time soon.
Last night I went out with some friends, and I wanted to look extra nice, because lately I haven't been looking too nice.  I did my hair, did my makeup (a rare occurrence), and as I was getting ready to head out, I grabbed my pretty blue jacket that I've had for a few years.
It didn't fit.  I couldn't even zip it up.
How could that be??  I didn't think that I had really gained that much weight.  But there it was, plain as day.
"Okay," I thought.  "I still have my red one.  I don't have to zip it up.  It just has two buttons and a tie around the waist."
It didn't fit.  It was very tight around the shoulders/arms area.
Sigh.
You can only ignore the signs for so long.  I always thought it was weird how people didn't notice they were gaining weight.  But I see how it can happen now.  I mean....I knew I was gaining weight.  But I didn't think it was that noticeable.  Clothes don't lie.  And jackets certainly don't lie.
I'm so tired of this.  So.  Very.  Tired.
When is this going to stop?  It has to.  And soon.    :(