Enough Is Enough

Well hello there….I’m sure no one is here anymore.  Which is to be expected.  But I miss blogging.  I miss the accountability, and I miss writing.  So, I’m back!   :D

Now more than ever I need the accountability.  I’m not going to go into the nitty gritty details, but my weight has been climbing.  If you read my blog before, you know this. 

I think before I signed off on blogging, my weight was around 176 pounds, plus or minus a few because it fluctuated so much.  I weighed myself this morning, and I’m now at 189.4.    :(     I can’t believe it. 

Guys, I’m getting really scared.  How is it possible?  It just keeps creeping up and up and it’s not stopping.  I’m starting to feel out of control.  A huge problem lately is doing so good during the day, then getting home and completely bingeing.  Part of my problem is that I have trigger foods in the apartment for my boyfriend.  I’ve gotten rid of those foods, but this is just getting ridiculous.  It has to stop.  I never thought I’d be up to almost 200 pounds.  That is just terrifying to me, and I have been so disgusted with myself and my body.  Honestly, I really feel like I haven’t changed my eating habits so much that it would warrant that type of weight gain, so I’m really at a loss.  I don’t know if it’s because I’m getting older, the sedentary lifestyle is catching up, or what. 

But that stops now.  I need this blog, I need the support, and the accountability.  So I’m back.  For how long?  Who knows….but at least until I can get this weight under control.  I’ll be documenting my entire journey here.  The highs, the lows, and the boring in-betweens.  No more pushing things under the rug, and no more weight gain.  I absolutely refuse to let myself gain another ounce. 

From this point forward, the scale goes down.  I will NOT allow it to go up. 

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!!