Day 1 of Weigh In Monday

149.6.  That is my starting weight for "Operation: Butterfly."  And *ahem*....if you remember correctly, I weighed 150.9 last Wednesday.  Which means I lost 1.3 pounds!    :D    *Happy Dance*    And I am FINALLY back in the 140s.  Now let's stay there (but not for too long, because I'd like to get in the 130s some time soon)!!

I should also mention....regarding my goal outfits in the previous post - I do NOT want to look like that girl in the red dress.  TOO skinny, and no curves at all!!  I plan on doing that dress justice, because I don't think she does.  Just sayin'!

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So, it's Monday.  Gross.  But next week, thank goodness, we have a 3-day week (Christmas Eve is a paid holiday for us!).  I'm looking forward to that.  I'm also looking forward to seeing the family on Christmas Eve.  It's one of those things where I only see them once a year, really, unless I go to the cabin while they happen to be up there (my mom's sister and their family have a cabin right next door to ours).

Not sure what the boyfriend plans on doing (no, we didn't break up - long story).  Last year his parents were in Ecuador over Christmas (that's where they're from), so this wasn't a problem.  But this year they didn't go, and he wants to spend Christmas Eve with them.  Which is fine, but his ex wife will be there.  I'm not happy about this.  Not at all.  I have a feeling this is what my life is going to be if I end up staying with him.  Just one stressor after another, especially regarding his ex-wife.  Not something I need.  It's certainly something I need to take seriously and think about.

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That's it for now.  I should probably do a little work while I'm here.    ;)

Operation: Butterfly

So what's in a name?  I chose My Inner Butterfly as the name of this blog, not just to use in a diet sense.  But also in a life sense.  Over the years, I have concentrated on doing what everyone did.  I've concentrated on putting others first, or only making decisions based off of what other people thought.  So you can imagine what a lost young girl I am.  I have no idea who I am.  There are a few things about me that I do know.  I love to dance.  I love to read.  And I love music.

But if someone asked me who I am, I have no idea where to start (even that introduction about myself over to the right of my blog was a half-assed attempt to try to explain who I am).

It's time to find who I am.  To find what I like.  To find my place in this world.  To come out of my cocoon and morph in to my inner butterfly.

How am I going to do this?  That's a good question.  Over the next week or so, I'm going to find that out.  The first part of my plan (and probably the most obvious) is to work on my health.  I know this is not what I am destined to be.  I know that I am not destined to be overweight, to hide beneath clothes, to avoid shopping because I'm too fat and don't want to deal with buying mediocre clothes.

Operation: Butterfly will start with a plan for my eating and exercise.  I'm switching up my weigh-in days to Mondays.  I know....Weigh-In Monday doesn't have much of a ring to it like Weigh-In Wednesday does.  But since everything is starting tomorrow, kind of like a fresh start, I want my weigh-ins to be on Mondays.

And here is my goal dress (in a medium, because let's face it, I may lose some poundage, but my boobs will still be bigger than the average bear!).  This hot dress is from Forever 21, and actually not bad price-wise!

Yep, it's a little bit skanky.  It will be my clubbing dress.  Who knows....I may chicken out and never wear it in public (like I've done with a lot of clothes, even in my skinny days...because I'm pretty modest).  But I WILL be taking pictures and posting them on the blog.  I'm also ordering this pair of size 8 jeans from Express to hang on my door....

Nothing like some clothes to motivate you!  And you heard it here first folks....I will be posting pictures of THESE clothes on the blog when I fit in them.  More details to come.  

Not only will I be cleaning up my diet and working out more, but I'll be working on the entire package.  More details to come.  For now, it's off to relax and enjoy the rest of my Sunday night.     :)

My Inner Butterfly

Ta-Da!  I have a brand spanking new domain!  My new URL is www.myinnerbutterfly.com.  This is probably a little premature, seeing as no one really reads my blog.  But I liked the idea of having my own domain, and I wanted to go in a bit of a different direction with this blog.

Of course, my blog posts will still include lots of weight loss stuff, since that pretty much consumes my life right now; but I also wanted to include more of my everyday life.  My life certainly is not all about weight loss.  And I'm hoping to include a lot more personal things about myself.

This is just kind of a draft.  I'm still working on some final details, and maybe coming up with some other pages.

AND....it's Friday night, and I'm laying here on my couch.  Alone.  Well, not alone.  I'm with Ricky.....

My cute little guy.  

I'm alone, because I think my boyfriend and I broke up.  

I know.  We have a weird relationship.  Sigh.  What a telenovela of a life I live.  It'd be nice to be drama-FREE for once.  Maybe some day.

Changes

There will be some changes to this blog soon.  GOOD changes!  I'll be posting more details over the next week or so!

Non-Weigh-In Wednesday

I made the executive decision NOT to weigh in today, because it's that time of the month.  And I'm not going to shoot myself for gaining weight (which I know I did) at this time.  Sigh.  I hate being a girl sometimes.  Guys don't have to worry about this kind of crap when they're trying to lose weight.

I haven't really touched on my Operation: Eat Clean.  Mainly because I haven't been doing that great.  However, I have been eating more veggies and fruits, and trying to stay away from carbs at night (which has been a total disaster the last couple nights after getting home from my 2 hour long commutes due to the snow....all I want to do is stuff my pie hole with bread and sweets after that crap).  But.  But I tend to be one of those "all-or-nothing" dieters, and I do need to give credit where credit is due.  I have done a better job at eating cleaner foods, due to the circumstances (especially with all the treats we're getting at work this time of year).  I've also followed my schedule as far as mini-meals, and water breaks.  So I've gotten in a lot more water.  My problem as of late seems to be mindlessly eating at night, due to stress, boredom, sadness, you name it.  I'm a classic emotional eater.

Tomorrow is our building's holiday party/potluck (we have 3 buildings here in Minneapolis...it's like a university campus), where a ton of people are bringing in delicious things to eat.  I'm going to let myself enjoy it.  It will be my tenth cheat meal for this week.

Ugh.  So much for looking great at Christmas and wowing everyone who hasn't seen me for a year.  I mentioned in a previous post that I've been touting on Facebook all my BodyStep workouts, and my marathoner/triathlete cousin has been cheering me on.  I'm sure she'll wonder what the heck happened that I don't look any different.  Oh woe is me.

Weekend Recap

Good morning everyone.  Back to work today.  The commute took extra long today (and had to get up real early), so I'm in need of some coffee.  More on that in a second...

So I had a pretty event-filled weekend.  For me, anyway.  Friday night I went to volleyball with the boyfriend.  We were there until about 11:00, got home at 11:30, and I cooked something quick (leftover shrimp and rice for him...I didn't eat anything.  I wasn't hungry).  Then I went to bed as early as I could, but it wasn't early enough....I think we finally got to bed around 12:30 or 1:00.

Saturday was our holiday movie party for work.  We rent out a local movie theater, and show movies, along with having Santa and Mrs. Claus there.  About 1200 RSVP'd, but I don't think that many showed up.  It was a good time.  I decided to see Life of Pi - it was a very good movie, and I was on the edge of my seat for quite a bit of the movie.  I recommend it, definitely.

Saturday was also my dad's birthday, so I went out to my parents' house for a few hours.  It's always good to see them....I love going home.  And my mom decorated this year (she hasn't the last few years, just because she's been busy).  Love how it looks when it's decorated!!

I couldn't stay too late, because we were under a winter storm warning.  I figured the weather man was wrong again, because it still wasn't snowing by the time I left.  Um, I was wrong, because on Sunday, we woke up to this....

We got about a foot of snow overnight!!  Yay for a white Christmas!!  Last year, we had a brown Christmas, and Christmas just wasn't the same.  Yes, it's cold in the winter, but I can't imagine living anywhere else.  There's nothing else like snow.

But that also meant the commute this morning was not good.  The plows didn't do too great of a job plowing, and the roads were still pretty bad.  I was driving about 40 mph in a 55 mph zone the whole ride.  

That's it for now.  Nothing diet-related.  That'll be another post!  Have a good one!

Huh?

150.8

That's what the scale said this morning when I weighed myself (yes, I weighed myself after my fat girl meltdown, consisting of stuffing my face with a Whopper....apparently I like to torture myself).

WHAT?!  I lost weight after that?????

I have a weird body.  That's all I have to say.

The end.